Started College... Why doesn't it feel right?

 I started my second semester. I have a couple classes I like. One I haven't had yet because the teacher had a family emergency. I have a roommate for the first time. I am also trying to test myself by being outside my dorm more. I don't know why but something feels off to me. I can't eve write. I have no stories to tell, and I am also worried that I will get way to invested in my story and lose sight of my studies. I am probably just adjusting. I don't know.

I have a couple friends here, but I have a very low social battery, so I feel off after every interaction. I want to socialize but don't want too. I want to be seen but I also want to hide away. I don't like being 2 things at once. 

But I am that most of the time anyways.

In other news my books are doing pretty good. I have had 40 orders in one month. That's a record for me. Feels good to know my books are in people's library's. I'm excited to see if The Loveless Files has a positive response from readers. I am hoping for reviews in my 6 years of being and author, My 11 books... I haven't gotten much. In fact, I don't really pull much of an audience in general. The only times people pick my books up is when they are on a special deal. Which I am okay with but sometimes I feel a little discouraged.

Either way crossing my fingers for some feedback and I am hoping this weird cloud feeling gets out of my head. I am in a place I want to be. Doing things, I want to do and it hasn't sunk in yet. I hope it does soon

-Jupiter M. Moon

The Loveless files- Growing everyday.

This book started off as a 5000-page story. Now its encroaching on 30,000 words. I can't wait to release it. I genuinely love and enjoy writing it. I'm calling it my big girl book due to its mature themes. 

Before I was afraid to write certain things because I knew my family sometimes read my books. Well now at 26 years old, 10 books later I am writing a story without bounding it to a rated G realm. 

It's going to turn into a series. 

A 3-book series.  

First book will be released by next Friday.

Also, my 2-star rating came through on amazon today. It stings to look at but I know as a writer sometimes things don't land and that's okay. 

-Jupiter M. Moon

I got my first review on my attempt at horror.

I put up a horror story about 5 days ago. I had never written horror before, so this was a big deal for me. In it are 3 short stories. It is making its rounds on kindle unlimited. I was feeling inspired, so I started working on a new title. It's called The Loveless Files. Anyway, this title is being grabbed up and it's doing better than every poetry book I have ever put out. I have been checking daily to see if anybody put reviews up and I saw today that I got a 2-star rating.

I am glad it left an impression enough on somebody to read it. Good or bad, someone leaving a review means they took the time to read your book, and it made them feel something.

This is not my first low review. I have gotten a 1 star on a poetry book before. The person didn't leave any feedback on why, but point is this isn't my first bad review. That being said, I saw the 2 star and my first thought was to take the book down LOL... but I am not going to do that.

I am not sure why that was my first thought really. I guess I just got embarrassed because I wasn't expecting it. It just means when I make another attempt at horror. I have to do a bit better or do something different. If more reviews come in and they are in general, pretty low...it just means horror may not be my genre. Time will tell!

Anyways The Loveless files follows a morally grey mind reader who works as a psychologist. I am extremely excited for it. I have two drafts done. I am working on the third and final.

I have already made the cover.

Doing it all by myself definitely probably lowers the quality of my work but I don't have the money to pay a cover designer, publisher, or editor. Hopefully one day I will.

That's all for today. 

-Jupiter M. Moon

I am back.

 It's been a while since I have blogged anything. Alot has changed or is changing and I feel very excited and nervous about it. I have finally started having more good days than bad and this is perfect because it is leading up into my first week at school. The question on whether not I was going was on my mind for a while. Thankfully I was able to figure things out and get back on track. I will be having a new roommate, a new job, new classes and I can imagine adjusting will be extremely hard for me, but it is a challenge I welcome.

I wrote a new horror short story collection during my break. I am very proud of it. I gave something a voice I never had before. The Old House Has a Voice is probably one of my favorite works this year. I now have ten books out. That's right ten! Do I get sales no but that's okay. I accept this is more so a hobby for me more than a job. I tried to make it a job this summer, and I made less than 5 bucks from it in total this summer despite putting in 10 hours a day at times. Anyway, now that school is starting up, my writing pen will probably go quiet again while my blogging one will start to dance a bit more.

Ending with a mini poem. One that has been circling on my mind a lot lately. 

My Sash.

I wear badges

some holding the same design

with the only difference

being a roman numeral 

this matters not to me

I still display them

proudly on my chest.

Even if nobody reads a word....

Even if my paged remain

undisturbed and nobody

wishes to open the gates

to my library 

I should hope my pen

never falls quiet

due to the echo's

of my scribbles 

bouncing off the walls

and back to me

I wrote this during a low recently. Ive came out with 4 new books this summer and so far, I have been struggling to get people to read them. It's like I feel so proud and I spend hours upon hours a day just working on them and designing covers, but it goes right into the void. I always tell myself that even if nobody sees it, I have to write anyway.

and I listen to that.

I keep feeling silly that it upsets me, so I wrote this.

-Jupiter M. Moon

About me: Jupiter M. Moon

Age:   26✋

Gender:  Female👩

Book Count:  8💝

Favorite Color:  Always changing but right now Purple💜

Sign: Gemini👀

Favorite Food: Love a good burger but I also love sweets! 💗💗

Favorite Book: Series: I am a sucker for Twilight ☺

Favorite Season: Winter... I stand by that😎

What I like To Do: I like birdwatching, writing, storm chasing, and photography! 💅

Am I In College: Yes, currently pursing my bachelor's in psychology...but already hold an associate's in liberal studies! 👏

My Dreams: I hope that I succeed as a poet and author. I also hope to get my doctorate in psychology and own my own practice.

Other: I struggle with mental illness, so majority of my works focuses on that. I aim to make others who struggle with Mental Illnesses like depression, anxiety, bipolar disorder, and insomnia feel less alone.

That's a little about me!

Thanks for reading!

-Jupiter M. Moon

It doesn't happen right away

 We all have to start somewhere. Even if this blog gets zero views and my books are never opened again, I can die proud knowing I at least tried and started. But I now have a collection worthy of promotion and individual poems I think are good enough to submit to a magazine. Just keep trying.

-Jupiter M. Moon